Ruby’s friend Sophie
asked me a funny question today. “How do you know what to paint?”
I answered her with a
question. “How does your mom know what to write?” Because Sophie’s mom is acomedy writer.
“That’s easy,” Sophie
said. “She’s in a room with a bunch of other writers and they start making up
stories they think will be funny.”
“Is it really easy?” I
say. She pauses and looks at me.
“No.”
Around here I don’t try
to think of what will be funny. I don’t try to think of anything, really. “Do
you paint what you see?” she asks.
Yeah. But there are
different ways of seeing. Sometimes you wake up and look out your window,
before you get out of bed, and you might see a child’s balloon floating along
outside. Or if you’re at a party on the 15th floor somewhere and you
look outside, the tops of the trees are below you.
What you see is
determined by where you are—on any given day, in any moment. Some days the
leaves are green and budding. Some days there are no leaves and everything is
brown or white. Some days there are no trees anywhere near you at all.
And some days (and
that’s most for me) you’re not painting what you see in front of you. You’re
painting what you see in your mind. Your dreams, or memories, or what you wish
you’d seen. Maybe there’s something that scares you or something you’ve wanted
to do for a long time.
My favorite artist (right
now) is Chagall, because all his paintings are like dreams, and they bring us
into another world. Floating brides and flying couples and circuses; forms bent
backwards and red cows and women blooming out of trees. My favorite is of a man
holding onto a woman in a purple dress, because it looks like he is the only
thing keeping her from floating away into the stratosphere.
I feel like I need
someone to hold me here too, because… because I want to fly away sometimes.
Many times.
Ruby keeps me grounded, Ruby
and Ray. Gary needs someone to hold him, too, but I can’t always be that
person. The two of us want to dance too much, and you can always dance better
in the sky.
Anyway, Sophie, you
paint what you see, but you don’t have to be standing in front of something to
see it. You can close your eyes and see it better, in fact. Maybe late at night
if you’re tired of painting, you might crawl out your studio window and sit on
the ledge, closing your eyes. Float away a little, if nobody’s looking.
Who knows? If you’re lucky, you can fly away before they even know you’re gone.
Who knows? If you’re lucky, you can fly away before they even know you’re gone.
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